Matters of the Race

Life is like a race
Sometimes, we go too fast
We fall on our face
Trip over our feet
Tied up with ourselves

Sometimes, we go too slow
Think too much
Wait & contemplate
Until, it’s too late

Sometimes, we fall off track
Feel like giving up
Bruised and cracked
We drop the baton
We don’t feel like doing jack

Sometimes, we think…
We’re completely out of the race
Fallen from grace
When we’re just bit displaced

It’s all just matter
Time and space

The lap will return
We’ll continue our pace
Take up where we left off

Either way, we end up in the same place

At the end of the day
We only come face to face
With time

We realize how much we complicate
How we only race with ourselves
And how none of it matters anyway.

Copyright © 2014 Carlos J. Mendez

Nothing But Love

“Today I affirm that there is nothing in me but love. This love comes from total acceptance of myself & the understanding that I AM a perfectly imperfect human being. I will walk through today & allow myself to fully express my perfection. I realize that all my “faults” are actually the Universe’s unique way of expressing itself through me. I let go of self judgment & any projected judgments of others that I have chosen to believe & finally allow myself to just be what I truly am: infinite. As this is true for me, so it is true for all other beings on the planet. I will choose to accept everyone in my life with the same radical acceptance I have for myself knowing that we are all perfectly imperfect human beings simply doing the best we can. And so it is.” – Jackson Kiddard

Born Again

I’m born again

Feeling brand new

It’s my birthday

I can do what I wanna do

So I’m letting go

Of all the things I can’t control

Of all the silly fears we have inside

I’m not meant to feel little

I wasn’t brought here to hide

So I’m gonna continue to strive

And let my light shine

Proud of where I stand

With my heart in my hand

Simply in my knowing

In being the man

I am

-Carlos Juan Mendez


It is good to remember that one of our goals in life is to not be perfect. We often lose track of this aspiration. When we make mistakes, we think that we are failing or not measuring up. But if life is about experimenting, experiencing & learning, then to be imperfect is a prerequisite. Life becomes much more interesting once we let go of our quest for perfection and aspire for imperfection instead.

This doesn’t mean that we don’t strive to be our best. We simply accept that there is no such thing as perfection—especially in life. All living things are in a ceaseless state of movement. Even as you read this, your hair is growing, your cells are dying & being reborn & your blood is moving through your veins. Your life changes more than it stays the same. Perfection may happen in a moment, but it will not last because it is an impermanent state. Trying to hold on to perfection or forcing it to happen causes frustration & unhappiness.

In spite of this, many of us are in the habit of trying to be perfect. One way to nudge ourselves out of this tendency is to look at our lives & notice that no one is judging us to see whether or not we are perfect. Sometimes, perfectionism is a holdover from our childhood—an ideal we inherited from a demanding parent. We are adults now & we can choose to let go of the need to perform for someone else’s approval. Similarly, we can choose to experience the universe as a loving place where we are free to be imperfect. Once we realize this, we can begin to take ourselves less seriously & have more fun. Imperfection is inherent to being human. By embracing your imperfections, you embrace yourself. – Madisyn Taylor – DailyOM

Questions of Science

Rats & mice are used for testing
And experimentation
We may have similar characteristics
But, we are not rats

Yet, how else would we test?

On each other?
Of course not
And should we even be testing?
Or just living naturally?
Of course we want to save lives
But when are we crossing the line?

Even if over 95% of the mouse genome is similar to our own
20,000-25,000 genes
The same as a chimpanzee
Cost-effective & efficient to speed research
So small & have a short generation time
An accelerated lifespan
1 mouse year = 30 human years
The space & time required to perform research is manageable

And I’m scientific
But is there a thing as too much Science?

Maybe if we pay more attention to nature & spirit
We could find that there are cures for everything
If from this world
Then of this world
Vegetables, fruits, plants & herbs
If it came from here
It should be from here

Shouldn’t we have figured it out?
We’re smart, right?

Unless we tried to fix shit
And fucked up a lil bit

I’m always torn on this subject
Because science & medicine have achieved much
But I think somewhere along the line
We lost touch
Started getting too hooked on “legal” drugs
And half of these diseases were never around 20 yrs ago
We’ve gotten too far off our natural path
We think the remedies all quickly come from the lab
And we’re just filling up banks

Anyway, I went off on a tangent
Back to the rats…